OK,I am remaining calm because I know it is only day 4... But for real, weekends are so hard to enjoy without spending any money!! Options that I bypassed today include watching football at a sports bar with friends, which I LOVE doing... And also of course, shopping with friends... It seems that I have a pattern, I do these things with my friends, and now it is a set thing, these things that we do. I enjoy doing them, and I enjoy the company of my friends while doing them... So the question is - how can I still enjoy their company without doing all the spendy things that go with them?
Now, today, I did say no to a lot of fun things... But to be honest, I wasn't feeling myself, slight stomach ailment... It made saying no easier, it gave me a legitimate excuse. But what will I do next weekend?
I don't know how to do the things I want to do without spending. I know there are other free types of things to do, but I am already in the pattern, the blending of spending and friending... lol, I just totally made that up.... Again, please credit me if you use it...
And of course, my child wanted to go spending today... She wanted new school supplies, and she wanted to enjoy the ice cream from the ice cream truck that came by in the after noon... But saying no to her is getting easier,since she seems to fully grasp this month long experiment.
So instead, we stayed in today. We played on the computer, watched movies and then made some homemade pasta, which took forever, but was kind of fun.
Also, I started to look online for flight prices, considering going home for the holidays. And that, of course, just brought out more feelings of needing to spend and not being able to, feelings of inadequacy... Interesting that my inability to buy things makes me feel so inadequate....When did money validate people? Depressing, the whole lot of it. I hate having money issues, and I hate that so much depends on having it, earning it and saving it.... It seems to have more meaning than it should....
I dunno... Anyway, my day 4 was pretty depressing, but I did not spend one thin dime.... I wanted to, I could hear those buffalo wings calling my name from the sports bar... but I stayed home, and he had a nice little day in....
OK, see ya tomorrow!
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