Hello, everyone and thank you so much for reading!
Today begins the weekend. And while I am very proud that I have not spent at all today, I do admit to a struggle I had... Beyond that, the weekends are always the hardest, even without "Mockingjay" and buttered popcorn....
But today started out fine, and then I ran to the bank at lunch time. The branch I like is in Windermere, which is a lovely town once lived in by Tiger Woods himself... They have a great little town center, reminding me of a tiny Princeton or Chester in New Jersey, charming and quaint. And I had forgotten - they also have a Farmers Market on Friday's at lunch time... Yup. And there I was, ready to not spend, and what did I see? Those tell tale white tent peaks, clearly indicating a market of some sort... Flea, Farmers, Fish, Stock, it doesn't matter, it's a market! I instinctively sought out a parking spot. Inside, I cried "Yay!", because I have been meaning to check it out. As it is very popular, there were no spots. As I drove past the beautiful white peaks, I saw the sign that indicated they were closing in a few minutes anyway, and suddenly I felt better about not being able to get a spot. And off I drove.
See the problem?
I am hoping that at some point, before I parked and started to explore all the wonders of the market, that I in fact would have reminded myself that I cannot spend money. But I am wondering if that would have really happened or not... I do have a fleeting recollection of a little voice whispering, "can't spend money", and then another, louder, more New Jersey voice saying, "Shut up, I can buy vegetables!"... And that was when I couldn't find the parking spot and all the voices disappeared.
Has that ever happened to you? The excitement of the situation overwhelms your thought processes? In fact, I would go so far as to say they didn't interrupt my thought processes, instead they prevented them from starting up at all. A neurological short circuiting, if you will... Then you wake up... ? Well, I only hope I was about to wake up before I starting looking at all those things I didn't know I needed at those great prices... 2 for 1 soy candles, hummingbird wind chimes, organic hummus and who knows what else!!
OK, I made it through today... but what about tomorrow? And what about these roots that are getting ridiculous now? How will I make it not just this weekend, but these next 2 weeks? And beyond that, how will I apply this level of control when I clearly just cannot wait for this 30 days to be over? What happens when it ends? Will I be like the dieter who hits the goal weight and then celebrates by gaining it back (yes, I have done that as well... )...? Why do I always feel like doing things that are good for me are punishment? So much more to learn...
OK, well more on this tomorrow, the dreaded Saturday...Wish me luck! And thank you for reading! xo
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