Curse you, weekend.... Curse you, Florida, with your warm and inviting weather all year long.... Today was very hard, and continues to be challenging even at almost 7pm.... I can only imagine that every weekend will be a struggle, especially at this "spendy" time of year...
It started with the Harvest-Fest. I was just going to go to look, but I knew better. Looking often turns to spending, and I wisely opted out. But then my fried suggested that we all go to this extremely fun sounding festival. She knows I am watching my money, and suggested it because it was free to get in. And even though there are rides and food, we could probably go and have a good time for less than $30. Normally, I would have just gone. I would not have even considered it an issue, I would have just jumped at a chance to go and do something fun with my daughter, my friend, and her kids.... We would be in the car on the way there right now. But instead, I declined. And I want to be there. I want to go and eat the stupid fried oreos. I want to watch my daughter go on the rides. I want to see her play over priced games, and win useless crap. And the more I think about it, the more I feel deprived. I hate that feeling.
Then, I turned on the TV, and flipped around the channels. One of the shopping channels had an amazing deal on an iPad mini... Really great deal. My very first instinct was to buy it, because after all, my Nexus 7 is getting old and is very slow (I mean, really slow). And you know, you can only watch Netflix on it, not Amazon Prime, and what a great thing to have one tablet on which I can watch all my movies.... Oh, and did I mention that it was on EZ pay?? So really, I could have this awesome tablet within 2 days, for only $65.... It is amazing! And here you see the real me, the me that doesn't really take the time to consider the impact of the remaining $65 withdrawals from my account....The me who wants it now, without consideration of anything at all, actually. I mean, of course if it was like a Lamborghini or something, of course I would hesitate. But things like this, these "micro-expenses" as I will call them (please note that I coined that phrase when you use it, thank you!) are the things that have been eating me alive, since I consider them so small, so minimal, that the could really do no harm.
And lastly, it is the weekend. The weekend means fun, relaxation... It does not mean slaving over a hot stove, but rather it means ordering in Chinese food... I mean, I worked hard all week, and I really am in no mood to cook. But you see, I have to cook now. Because of this stupid pact that I made, which has taken me only 3 days to regret...
Saturday was indeed very hard, and I suspect I will still have my demons before it is over. I suspect I will crave Coldstone, which is only about a mile away.... Or something similar. But I remain committed. Frustrated, but committed!
Thank you for reading! PS - Who is Chris Young? He is headlining at the festival I opted out of... Am I missing anything great?
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